when i was 17, 1grade in ig school, i went a retreat called 'good news schol' in first week of september. and There, I believe i jesus first of my life personally.
nou only i was born a christian but also i have not absented even a day from church. but i didn't know what does cross mean for me. so when i was middle school boy, i became too skepticism though presented church everyday.
But through this retreat, i saw how my being was so hopless, moreover i realized what does cross really mean to me and at the cross, what really happened.
In course of retreat, there are time for calling to missionary. Pastor said "anyone who is given the heart of mission, stand up" but i said in my mind 'i can't do that', 'i have no right.' But that very moment, someone in my mind whisper to me "this is not your work, but i will do it and you will see"
This is my calling to mission. from that day my vision is missionary. yet i don't know where i have to go, what i have to do actually but there is one thing i can sure; he will do it though my life, and i will see obviously.
2012년 10월 23일 화요일
wisdom tooth
wisdom tooth.
some weeks ago, my tooth started to ill in every bite. this symptom was getting harder and harder, so i have no choice but see a dentist.
i visited dental clinic and got a head X-ray. Dentist said to me that reason to my symptom is wisdom teeth.va because i have pulled out 2 wisdom tooth at right side in summer cation, in my X-ray there left 2 wisdom tooth left at another side. the trouble is that downside of them is hiden in the gum so i have to do a surgery. Anyway i made a reservation to surgery and came home.
In surgery date, first of all i was given a anesthetic shot in half of my mouth and that was horribly painful. After anesthetic i had to wait nearly 30min so that paralyze utterly. and during the time i got paralyzed slowly. Finally sitting at the dentist chair i pretended to feel fine but frankly to say, i was in fear. A nurse came and said to me that don't panic there will not be even tiny feeling because of aneshetic shot and surgery will be finish quickly. i knew that she was struggling for my relax and to my surprise my fear was gone away somehow. surgery started and everything seemed so nice.but after (maybe)2minute there was problem that a teeth at downside was linked with bone. dentist endeavored to pull out by force but it didn't work at all. gradually i became to feel fright again and be worried. after several attempts my teeth was pulled out with a big sound. i totally amazed.
After surgery, dentist said to me that bone piece that linked with wisdom teeth was broken in the process of extraction of a teeth. So my chin will be puff off severely. i was dispaired and returnes to school.
Slowly anesthetic wore off and i could feel pain. it was great deal of pain that i've never felt before. because of terrible suffering i couldn't do anything but had a goarn. after took a drug prescribed at a pharmacy i could take a rest. It was terrible nightmare.
now most of pains were gone but my chin is puffed off still. and i cannot eat well. i want to get well as soon as possible.
some weeks ago, my tooth started to ill in every bite. this symptom was getting harder and harder, so i have no choice but see a dentist.
i visited dental clinic and got a head X-ray. Dentist said to me that reason to my symptom is wisdom teeth.va because i have pulled out 2 wisdom tooth at right side in summer cation, in my X-ray there left 2 wisdom tooth left at another side. the trouble is that downside of them is hiden in the gum so i have to do a surgery. Anyway i made a reservation to surgery and came home.
In surgery date, first of all i was given a anesthetic shot in half of my mouth and that was horribly painful. After anesthetic i had to wait nearly 30min so that paralyze utterly. and during the time i got paralyzed slowly. Finally sitting at the dentist chair i pretended to feel fine but frankly to say, i was in fear. A nurse came and said to me that don't panic there will not be even tiny feeling because of aneshetic shot and surgery will be finish quickly. i knew that she was struggling for my relax and to my surprise my fear was gone away somehow. surgery started and everything seemed so nice.but after (maybe)2minute there was problem that a teeth at downside was linked with bone. dentist endeavored to pull out by force but it didn't work at all. gradually i became to feel fright again and be worried. after several attempts my teeth was pulled out with a big sound. i totally amazed.
After surgery, dentist said to me that bone piece that linked with wisdom teeth was broken in the process of extraction of a teeth. So my chin will be puff off severely. i was dispaired and returnes to school.
Slowly anesthetic wore off and i could feel pain. it was great deal of pain that i've never felt before. because of terrible suffering i couldn't do anything but had a goarn. after took a drug prescribed at a pharmacy i could take a rest. It was terrible nightmare.
now most of pains were gone but my chin is puffed off still. and i cannot eat well. i want to get well as soon as possible.
2012년 10월 4일 목요일
where is my money?
this is an diary.
During chuseok, after a long interval i've met many relatives. we had a good time and i got a considerable sum of poket money from them. so when i turn to home, i started to make a plan how to use money so that i would not waste it.
my plan went like this: tithe, buy a pair of trousers, some cosmetics, a pair of shoes, and many books. and i wrote down in my note.
i went book store with a note that is written what i ought to buy. after i paid for books, i count the money left. preposterously i blew half of money on books ! and i shouted in my mind 'Where they've gone ?!WHERE IS MY MONEY??!!' At one time, my every plans are gone. all i have to do is just read a Grrreat deal of books with worn pants and shoes...
In korea, we have proverb that goes like this : the poket with holes. and this proverb is fit in to my situation.
thanks to today's happening, i learned about significance of forming a scheme tightly and practicing exactly.
actually, for now though i have to tighten my belt, somehow i feel fine with a matter as it is. because thay was fully my mistake and i know that once times had passed by and never come back again indeed.
all i can do now is just console to myself with reminding truth that book is valuable than any other stuffs..
Oct.4 2012. at the library
During chuseok, after a long interval i've met many relatives. we had a good time and i got a considerable sum of poket money from them. so when i turn to home, i started to make a plan how to use money so that i would not waste it.
my plan went like this: tithe, buy a pair of trousers, some cosmetics, a pair of shoes, and many books. and i wrote down in my note.
i went book store with a note that is written what i ought to buy. after i paid for books, i count the money left. preposterously i blew half of money on books ! and i shouted in my mind 'Where they've gone ?!WHERE IS MY MONEY??!!' At one time, my every plans are gone. all i have to do is just read a Grrreat deal of books with worn pants and shoes...
In korea, we have proverb that goes like this : the poket with holes. and this proverb is fit in to my situation.
thanks to today's happening, i learned about significance of forming a scheme tightly and practicing exactly.
actually, for now though i have to tighten my belt, somehow i feel fine with a matter as it is. because thay was fully my mistake and i know that once times had passed by and never come back again indeed.
all i can do now is just console to myself with reminding truth that book is valuable than any other stuffs..
Oct.4 2012. at the library
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